I think I've become Angela Chase.

Or at least, I kinda want to be her forever.

I discovered the glory that is My So-Called Life about three months ago when I was on the search for another show I hadn't yet devoured. After looking it up, I found that the entire series was on Hulu. What could be the harm in watching?

Over the course of four days I watched all nineteen hour long episodes and barely ever left my room except for necessities, like school and food.

Within a week of the marathon, I noticed I was starting to talk like her, with lots of um's thrown around, and uh's at the forefront of every sentence. Pretty soon after that, I realized I was starting to become weirdly introspective at inconvenient times, specifically Chemistry class.

Angela's whole shtick is that she's trying to find herself, and understand her mind, while in the process try to make other people make sense. And she's insecure about it, which really helped me fell less like an outcast than I have in the past. As a tv character, she's one of the most flawed I've ever seen, and that makes her more real to me than anything. Angela was a real person and was someone I wanted to be like because as confused as she was, she never really tried to change, or at least not for long.

Since watching the show, I've become more confident and happy. I'm more sure of who I am right now than I ever have been and I think Angela Chase and the entire show helped me more than I can possibly say. They all have problems never fully resolved, and questions that are never fully answered, just like real life, and I've learned to just let them go and deal with myself before I force me on other people.

Honestly, I think of her as a friend. Just another sort of weird fifteen year old girl trying to figure it out, and someone I depend on.


Story Utopia

I've come to you all with a topic near and dear to my heart: books. Now, I know people who wouldn't agree with this description, but books are absolutely the best thing ever. They provide an escape when you need one, and ground you in your humanity when you've been floating for too long.

When I was in second grade I was introduced to my first favorite book, Matilda by Roald Dahl. If you haven't read this, dear god find the closest library. It's about this little girl who's a genius, reads a lot, and is so smart she can move stuff with her mind in order to terrify the dictatorial principal of her elementary school.  Basically, Matilda is the definition of coolness in my younger mind.

Now everyone should know exactly what I'm about to rant on here. Harry Potter. Just the whole thing. I started reading this a bit after Matilda, when I had started my whole obsession with supernatural powers and stuff, and my eyes were opened. I admit, the writing in the first few books is kind of iffy, but everything about the flaws only makes the overall series more perfect.

I openly say that I cried like a baby when I was reading the last book. I also admit that while the burial scene did make me tear a little, I basically thought Dobby was just really annoying a lot of the time. Deal with it. But part of what I find incredible about this series is that this was the first book I read where and entire second universe was opened up to me. The idea that there could be another secret world out there

Seventh grade was the fateful year that I first read this amazing thing here. Its about Craig, who is depressed and suicidal. He checks himself into the emergency room and through a series of misunderstandings, is obliged to spend a few days in the hospital's mental ward. It one of the most wonderful things I've ever read.

Honestly, I don't really know why I like this book. A lot of it is really sad. A lot of the people and characters that you love hate themselves.

I think that what I like is that is isn't trying to spread some deep profound meaning. It's just a guy and how he feels and how he deals with it. The words don't sound pretentious because they aren't trying to sound above anyone. They just are.

I feel a bit distracted by the book that I'm reading right now, so I'll leave you all with a picture of a puppy



Hello, World

Hey everyone.  Happy New Year!!
It's officially 2013, and I want to officially do something with my life. And I've been meaning to start a blog, so this is the time.
THIS is my New Year's Resolution, and hopefully I'll stuck with it and not wimp out after a week or two.
My name is Morgan, I am fifteen years old, and fashion/music/ fairytale obsessed.

This is the introduction into my world, and hopefully you'll have as much fun here as I do.